Our Posterity

When we first got married, our thoughts on children were very different. "Sure it would be nice to have a child... one day. Not right now though." Deep in our minds we felt that having children would interrupt our plans. Good plans. We never once even thought about asking God about this area of our life
Four or five years later I began to have convictions about the pill. What did it really do? Did it stop ovulation? I came to find out the pill, like many other things out there could be an abortifacient. You could ovulate on the pill and never know it. This bothered us greatly.
I liked children and by now a child wasn't such a far off thought. So we decided to stop birth control. Six years after we got married I had our first born. I cried when they put him on my chest immediately after he was born. I cried and thanked Jesus for such a beautiful gift.
When I had my third, it was by C-section. A perfect opportunity to end it all. They asked if we wanted to in the operating room. But deep inside there was no peace to ending it. Not just for me, but in my husband also.
It was a subject we didn't quite understand, and one that we felt God did not give us the OK. It should have been easy to decide. We had three beautiful children. That was enough right? So why did we not have peace with ending it. The third child was the hardest. I had a 4yr. old, a 2 yr. old and now the baby. But, did I really want to end it? No, not really. I had enjoyed them so much! I loved thinking about what a posterity we had. Did I really want to say no to God if He had other plans? These thoughts flooded my mind. So we didn't. We had our 4TH, and then our 5TH. I can't say that I'm against spacing them out. I'm not. But something inside tugs my heart and tells me to just let the Lord have those concerns. To let God have complete control. Scary... real scary, but why? I know the Lord will help me. I read A Full Quiver by Hess last year. It was such a good book. I agreed with all of it. I couldn't disagree. It has been the thoughts of our heart.
There is a quote that goes like this:

The children bring us laughter and the children bring us tears; they string our joys like jewels bright, upon the thread of years.
by Edgar A. Guest

I cut this out from a calendar page the year my first born was born. I have the clipping on the side of my refrigerator where I can look at it every once in a while. It describes what the children do to me.
They are so worth it. It's so worth seeing the posterity of God come forth. There is joy in seeing my posterity.